Posted by Lesfriendly.com - The lesbian blog | Posted in Gay Issues, Lesfriendly | Posted on 10-01-2010
I’ve realized something. I’m not lesbian anymore.
I’ve never had a problem with labels until I realized that I was not comfortable with the term “lesbian” anymore.
It suddenly feels constricting. Don’t get me wrong – I’m definitely not going straight anymore. However, being “lesbian” in the essence of the word isn’t comforting anymore.
I’ve realized that I’ve also been attracted to men. But not just men, but gay men. Gay, pretty men. Think Legolas.
I’m not about to go hooking up with gay men at the next bath house, however – I’m attracted to them, but in a way that I wish I was gay too so I could hook up with these cute boys.
I thought I was transsexual, but then I’m also very much happy with my girlfriend, who is attracted to women dressing up as straight men O.O
My type - pretty gay men
GF's taste - pretty dyke women
Geez, talk about complicated. In the meantime, I’ve decided to be more comfortable with the term “queer” instead of gay, given this *ahrm* flexibility 
Or maybe I’m just over-thinking this. Anyway, whatever, labels aren’t all that important anyway. Cheers to gayness, lesbian-ness and queerness!
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It’s just a title, that’s fine. Nuff said. haha. Don’t need to be confused. Trying to understand it will only complicate things. Btw, kindly update my blog link here, I already have a domain.
Thanks!
since we are at this moment, let me admit that i fell in love with legolas, and i wont try justifying it by saying his long hair and smooth skin reminds me of women. i love him and his manhood. it didnt give me problems with the GF coz she can never compete with legolas. ayun.
and i am the only woman who was dubbed “honorary gay man” at the gay man’s support group which i used to attend regularly.
dont let the labels worry you — for all we know we could be bisexual (lesbian and gay man in one), but it really doesnt matter. i have stopped naming, and just kept feeling.
i love you and i love your column and it is so big of you to admit this. keep writing!
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